Day Four of the Cat Food Diet was maybe the most difficult thus far. The food that I am forced to eat is very challenging for me — I can’t speak for anyone else. I had the usual monotnous assortment of no matter-what-you-do-it-will-still-be-garbage meals but the day felt different.
I started feeling twinges of depression.
I know it may sound pathetic, but delicious food really makes people happy, especially me. I was in another pressure cooker today when me and my daughter and fiance went to Sam’s Club. The trouble about that place is that their snack bar sells really yummy kosher hot dogs. For the past few years, it has been tradition for us to get one whenever we step into the place.
My two companions had one, as well as shared a couple slices of pizza. I was feeling overwhelmingly sad and just tried to think positive thoughts. Later, we went to Walgreens and all my favorite snacks stared me down as I labored my enormous frame around the store fighting the pain of walking and the anguish of ignoring the goodies.
My girl bought me Ketone test strips to test my urine for ketosis. Once I’m in ketosis heavily, my body will begin to burn fat at a super fast rate. That time can’t come fast enough as my urine tested slightly above moderate [levels of ketones].
My girl had been on the Cat Food Diet with me, albeit taking occassional liberties like eating the occassional slice of bread (plus she’s not getting the blood work done). But she grew very hungry and began having headaches, so I took the guilt away from her and encouraged her to eat that “good food” at Sam’s Club.
It was so very painful enduring her eating what I wanted so bad. I said a small prayer while sitting there asking God to please help me get through this. I also received a couple positive text messages from my best friend which inspired me and I need plenty of that. I did my seven exercises of course, but I am finding it more painful to walk or move than it should be. I hope that’s a positive result of my working out.
Tomorrow is the first day of Spring and I hope that the new beginning I’m undergoing is as beautiful as when the flowers begin to bloom.
God help me.
